Ramblings#
It's been a long time since I wrote anything; the last time I posted something was in June. My motivation to write has been dwindling. Although I record what I learn every day, I find the simple things unworthy of sharing, like reproducing a vulnerability, a CTF problem, or using a tool. I feel these lack technical depth, especially when I see what other experts write, which is very professional, leaving me somewhat demotivated.
Another reason is that work has been too busy. Many colleagues have left, and the company isn't hiring but instead piling their work onto us, so my workload has increased, leaving little time to write.
Regarding work, everyone is talking about the poor economic environment, layoffs, and how hard it is to find a job. It seems like everyone has a unified stance, and the cold winds of winter seem to blow through everyone. What I can't understand is that the country emphasizes cybersecurity, yet the current state of the security industry is contrary to this emphasis. Both those who are making money and those who aren't say the environment is bad, and no one knows when this situation will end.
I've been pua'd by my ==superior== twice now; I really need to adjust my mindset, improve myself, and not be affected.
Now, in my spare time from work, I try to read more theoretical articles to enhance my knowledge base. I feel it's time to change careers, improve my communication skills, learn how to tell stories, and how to make others understand using my professional knowledge.
Writing this ramble has become quite laborious, just like my communication; there’s so much I want to express that I end up unable to articulate or write it down. I think this is the crux of the problem: I can't think too much and do too little. Practicing more and speaking up can help me become more skilled.
Work hard and strive.